The wayward sisters

Lust was the lure

Yet, love endured (if only a moment)

Was it fake, the love?

We felt it!

We looked right at each other!

Although we only knew each other for the drunken moment, love passed between us

And lust gave way to a kiss (like no other)

Gentle at first, then all consuming

A kiss…that seemed endless…and of the ages

We don’t know when it stopped (any of it)

We just…stopped

And never saw each other again

Pregnant, now what?

Abortion was always on the mind

Now three? (It cannot be)

The question daily, “how do you feel?”

Fine, just bigger, and not alone (never alone)

Yet, all by myself

No friends or family or means

Yet, I always ate…and slept

Kindness followed me, but never ahead

Just always there precisely when I needed it there

We talked, every day

They heard the voice of their mother

And I heard their lovely voices with no sound

I could have stayed in that place with them forever

But they grew and grew and grew

Invisible before, people smiled at me

Real big smiles, happy smiles, full of love

Some touched me

Completely fine knowing I’d be Ok with It

And then he said, “Hey Girls”

The smiling Hobo came closer

“They’re gonna be as beautiful as their mama”

In the moment it took me to think, he was too far to catch

Me being so fat

The days seemed endless

Like this was now me forever

And I was fine with that

Until I woke up and knew

Today was the day

I knew it would come

Goodbye Day

The bus was full until it was not

And I went for as long as I could

Until I knew this was the place

Beautiful, flowers everywhere

They’d love it here

So, I got off in the middle of nowhere

I waited for the bus to leave

Then I turned and walked into the field of flowers

The sun was hot

The pain was getting stronger

I just walked until I stopped and laid down

I wanted to die with them inside me, as one

But they wanted out

And I couldn’t stop them

One by one

Three girls, the same but different

I sat there with them nestled in the circle of my legs

They didn’t cry, it was I who couldn’t stop crying

The sun was so hot

My hand touched them, one by one

And they touched me back

Again, it was time

I was prepared and I cut our tethers

Once I did, I knew they weren’t mine anymore

That’s what made it so easy

I stood up and walked

Walked in the direction of the sun